I think my jaw may have literally dropped.
I think the word “what?!” may have come out of that open jaw in a whisper of disbelief.
I know my eyes were wide with shock.
And I sort of hate that I reacted in any way to someone telling me that Jennifer Knapp was gay.
But I sort of like that I had to find out for myself before I could move any further down the path of thinking about it/figuring out what I believe about it.
And I found some really great stuff here. Mostly because it goes straight to the source.
And as we watched her in concert last night, there were lots of things swimming around in my head…
how can she love God & willingly “disobey”
how do I feel about singing along to these songs that are so powerful to me, knowing they were written by someone who would do that.
how could I be such a hippocrite?
no, wait…it’s wrong to judge her, I don’t even know her.
And then, this thought came to mind…
She’s just not who I thought she was.
As if I even knew her in the first place!
And that’s sort of where I’ve landed with this for right now.
I don’t know her. I know that she has written some powerful songs. And I still love them.
And I know that she sang her heart out last night & it was beautiful to watch her & get drawn into her music-full of questions/honesty/faith/hope.
And I know that we, as Christians, are called to love above all else.
Not fix, or change, or judge.
So I will keep trying to train my brain/emotions/heart to not react so quickly to shocking news. But to love first.